baybeasts

Last night I felt b2 move. I’m not sure if it was the first time - there have been other tiny blips and bubbles over the last week that could have been movement, but it’s the first time I was absolutely sure that it was b2 and not some strange indigestion. I was sure because it happened and I thought, ‘oh, there’s my baby!’ Rather than, ‘um, could that be the baby?’

I have been waiting for this moment. I thought it would come suddenly - a blinding flash of certainty that there was a little person in there, not just a mess of my own innards. But it has been slow - first there was that miraculous, rusty heartbeat from the rickety old doppler in the GPs office; then the blips and bubbles; then a distinct sensation over the last three or four days of my belly stretching outwards - my uterus has definitely popped up over my pubic bone and is easily, clearly felt by both me and bean (especially when it goes hard with a small contraction). And then finally, last night, that clear shift and twist in my belly - still tiny enough to only be noticed when I was lying very still and not thinking about anything much, but absolutely distinctly a movement not generated by my own body.

Wow.